Kuwait's Confession Box

Confession 45 – Soccer Love

In Confessions on May 5, 2010 at 11:15 AM

I’m in love with my cousin. He is 3 years younger. We both used to hang out together 24/7. Us agianst the world. The soccer field was our haven. We’d always go with a soccer ball and just hang out shooting the ball to one another. I don’t remember if we ever talked, but the memory of how it was before and now makes me want to forget it ever happened. because it was so nice compared to now. He stopped coming over. It’s been a long time since we had a good disucssion with one another. Even on msn we don’t talk at all. I’ve forgotten how to talk with him. He’s dating girls. I’m not into that. He’s now dating a girl who’s related to him.

but.

but.

but.

I still love him. I know he has qualities i don’t like bout him, but whenever i think of him it makes me smile. I love everything about him, the boyish stuff, the bad stuff, and him being him. He once asked me during hide and seek if i hid there just because i wanted to be near him. I told him he was the last guy on earth i would want to be with. I was scared when he asked me that so I said that to distance him from me.

Now I wish things would have gone differently.

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  1. maybe you are not “in love” with him as much as you are missing him. from what you said, you both were the best of friends growing up.

    friends grow apart, it is the natural order of things. those that matter will stick together. what were you doing when he was not talking to you? it takes two people to neglect a friendship.

    im going to assume you are also a boy; who misses his best friend. and that you are both young, tweens-teens maybe. think about what you are saying; there are several levels of love, some shared by members of the same sex that are acceptable- best-friends, brothers etc. what level are you talking about? if it is anything above brotherly love, i am sorry to say you are setting yourself up for dissapointment.

    he has romantic interests; i will not say yours are “wrong”, lets stick with they go against the norms of the society you are both in.

    you need to re-start talking to him again, rekindle the connection of brotherhood you once had. go play football (its only soccer in the States)

    also, do yourself a favor and do not dwell on the smallest of things. that hide-and-seek incident would not have changed things no matter how it played out. do not beat yourself up over it.

    you will find out that you merely have a pang of sorrow on losing him as a close friend.

  2. I can’t give u any good Advise cause U LOVE HIM !

    But all I say to you, come on honey him being 3 years younger is not OK at all, u used to play and only play with him never talk y ?! Cuz hatha 7ad 3agla ohwa 9’3eer! Low sina ok sinteeen b3ad itan7ir yalla yalla tmshi bs 3 il farg wayid kbeer shay aked ina mayfakir fech as his gf, t’3ayar magam iyye ?! Sure cuz kn yahil w kbar.

    Inseh w btlgen 7ubich ili ynasbich bil 3umer wil tfker w kilshay inshalla ๐Ÿ˜€

  3. Advise cause U LOVE HIM !

    But all I say to you, come on honey him being 3 years younger is not OK at all, u used to play and only play with him never talk y ?! Cuz hatha 7ad 3agla ohwa 9’3eer! Low sina ok sinteeen b3ad itan7ir yalla yalla tmshi bs 3 il farg wayid kbeer shay aked ina mayfakir fech as his gf, t’3ayar magam iyye ?! Sure cuz kn yahil w kbar.

    Inseh w btlgen 7ubich ili ynasbich bil 3umer wil tfker w kilshay inshalla ๐Ÿ˜€

  4. Hopeless Romantic – just wanted to say i’m not homosexual, i’m really a girl who likes her (boy) cousin

    Pinc Rose & Hopeless Romantic – thanks for ur comments, it gives me a different perspective on the issue.

  5. pinc rose: 3 years is ok she said 3 not 10 or 20…stonge age mentality, it has to go!
    anyhoooo..its obvious that he liked u at a point but then since u drifted apart im thinking that the feelings dissolved…

  6. my apologies soccerlove; you could have mentioned that amidst saying, he datimng girls. in a world where it is so easy to offend someone and seem insensitive, at times one can be too sensitive, ๐Ÿ™‚ sorry again

    let me rephrase the advice to the proper context; the nature of ur relationship would probably not allow him to see you as someone who is in love with him, but someone whom he trusts. he may be looking for the “girlie” type of girl, im guessing the girl he is related to does not play football?

    you need to weigh two important things; is he happy, can you make him happy. but first you need to assess whether or not you just miss him alot, or you really do feel for him.

    if your assessment concludes with really being in love with your cousin, work to rebuild the connection between you, drop subtle hints, note his reactions. you will put yourself out there, but it is what all hopeless romantics do, we put ourselves out there with the best intentions. you are balancing on the edge of a sword, stay too long and it will hurt, make a move and it can go eitherway.

    communication is the key; and i wish you the best of luck. regardless of how it goes; you will find peace inner peace in the end, either with being with him, or realising that his feelings are not the same.

  7. @SoccerLoveConfession., he is your cousin can u just drop it off and wait for the right person…sorry folks but relatives shouldnt get hook to each other, i mean u got the same blood…-just sayin…

    * i respect ur culture/tradition* *mine is just an opinion*

  8. soccer love have you had any other relationship with the other sex besides ur cousin? in other words ever been exposed to a guy? i hope you reflect more on your relationships.

  9. See my comment in confession 47, plus statistics show a higher rate of divorce between related people not to mention genetical disorders in newborns.

  10. if i were you .. i would have just kissed him when he asked you .. moments like that are hard to find .. to bad its over now .. you can kiss your pillow and imagine its him! ๐Ÿ™‚

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